I’m a doer. I love to make a list of tasks to complete for the day, and then check the items off one by one. If I’m persistent, I manage to get everything done on the list. But more often than not, I have to carry over some chores to the following day.
Recently, I have had a couple of situations occur in my life over which I have no control. Absolutely none. No matter how many lists I create or plans I devise, the situations remain. That fact has caused more than a little frustration and anxiety.
During a particularly trying day recently, I texted my sister to ask for prayer. She immediately responded that she would pray, but she was available to talk if needed. I was still at work, so the conversation had to wait giving me extra time to fret.
Turns out I should have availed myself of my sister’s wisdom long before I did. She let me talk and talk. And talk. And. Talk. When I finally ran out of words, she said she understood where I was coming from. She had experienced similar seasons in her own life. Then she reminded me that sometimes God uses the journey to teach us and that the resolution (destination) may be a long time (or never) in coming. That perhaps that’s what was happening to me. She suggested I consider what God was trying to teach me, and to pray for understanding rather than resolution.
Am I totally at peace? Not yet. Do I understand how God is using the journey to teach me? No yet. But I am resting in the fact that he is in control. Which means I don’t have to be.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.”
Proverbs 3:5-6 (NASB)